It's is time.

It's finally time. After this post, i wont be updating anymore. off to serve NS and disappear for 2 weeks.

mm. thanks everyone for your well wishes. Thanks for everything.

before I go.

i dun think you'll see this soon anyway. But i'll still type it here i guess and hopeing you'll soon see it..

victoria:

thanks for believing in me.

thanks for loving me.

thanks for the things that you've said

thanks for the assurance.

thanks for the reassurance

thanks for the tolerance

thanks for being you

thanks for choosing me.

thanks for tolerating me.

thanks for everything.

thanks for helping me.

thanks for giving me a chance.

thanks for your support

thanks for your time

thanks for your efforts

thanks for your understanding

thanks for being there

thanks for all the fun times

thanks for everything.

thanks for forgiving me.

thanks for giving me another chance

thanks for the new start

thanks for the Arcueid plushie

thanks for everything.

i have never regretted being with you. i honestly do love you and i wan to carry on loving you. because, i dun wan to be without you.

take care.

don't worry about me.

i love you.

always.

good night.

1 more day.

Planetarian - 慈しみ深き

Just finished this game this morning. It's really really touching and i dunno.. Just kinda hit a nerve or something. Can't help but to feel sad whenever I listen to this heavenly piece of music. It's really a great Visual Novel. well, a kinetic novel to be exact. It's a one route visual novel. Broke down while playing this game to the end. Haha..

Mmm, just 1 more day of freedom before I actually do enter. I don't know what to feel really. Quite mixed up inside. Sadness, happiness, confusion, fear, loneliness, nostalgia and many more. I dunno, i really dunno. How can I just put a face and say everything's going to be fine. i really dunno. i really dunno. i'm just.. doubting thing again.

honestly, i've never felt like this in ages already. but i guess, times to time yea? sigh.. feel like breaking down already. at the thought of losing my freedom, of not being able to do whatever i want whenever i want, losing my lifestyle, not being able to see -you-, not being able to talk to -you-, not being able to be with -you-, not able to be with/hangout/talk to everyone else. I'm afraid of losing all these i guess. The times that i held so dear to me. i dun even know what will happen in the future. will i get to see everyone again? will we ever hangout again? i really dunno. i guess that's why i'm afraid and being such an idiot. sigh..

i guess thank you everyone again for everything. hope that in the future we'll see each other again. someday. ahaha.. sigh.

thank you for everything. guess i'll be leaving for 2 weeks very soon. sorry. for everything as well. aha..

And the song above from Planetarian. The original lyrics are as follows.. it's from a Christian song. Lyrics as follows. I guess that is why i find it super familiar. haha.. with that, i'm gone...

for -you-: wait for me. i'll be out in no time i guess. sorry. for making you wait.. mmm. take care.

Lyrics:

What a friend we have in Jesus,
All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilage to carry
Ev'rything to God in prayer!

Oh, what peace we often forfeit,
Oh what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry
Ev'rything to God in prayer!

Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged,
Take it to the Lord in prayer:

Can we find a friend so faithful
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness,
Take it to the Lord in prayer

Can we find a friend so faithful
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness,
Take it to the Lord in prayer.

Take it to the Lord in prayer.